belajar untuk menghormati

bagi aku sedikit payah untuk aku belajar menghormati kerana sebelum ini aku hanya buat apa yang aku suka. aku akan cakap apa saja yang terlintas tanpa fikir apa yang orang akan rasa. paling teruk aku mahu orang berfikir seperti aku..mungkin aku perlu masa.untung ada yang mengajar..bukan kurang diajar,tapi cuma TAK belajar.mungkin sekarang aku perlu keluarkan nota dan pensil untuk tulis...takut aku lupa.kan aku pelupa.

i believed

it have been a very long time since my last entry..this is just a random thought came up when i saw two movies that are Jennifers Body and Old Dogs..it makes me started to really believe...

true friend will always make things better for you.they do.the one you shared everything.they will know the exact words u really need to hear at the moment. those words that will heal ur wounds.they will always encouraged u in a good intention and no self interest.no hidden agenda and never ask anything in return.they will be like ur angel that always keep their eyes on you and make sure u r not been harm.

family will always come first.no doubt bout it.and even sometimes family can be ur true friend.

hell yes.my life have been suck up these few weeks.all are messed up.i have became jobless and even rejected from the interview.breaking up.fought with my mom because of little things.it made me thought about running away from all this and laying at the beach,enjoy the nature with no problem at all.

somehow,i must be realistic.this time i'll stay.i'll not run..lets face it!i believe i can..there will always a way to settle it down.because i have true friend, best friends, friends..and always a family...

look around u..is there any true friend.if you find one, hold them with gentle,with care.once broken consider lost..

lebih baik

bagi aku begitu mudah menjadi pengkritik dan penghukum atas segala kesalahan yang dilakukan oleh orang lain.kisah-kisah 2009 mengajar aku setiap perlakuan mereka, setiap kejadian punya sebab,punya punca..walaupun kadangkala ia seperti tidak dapat diterima akal.kini aku percaya..tidak salah jika sesiapa mahu merubah sesuatu tentang diri mereka.kerana apa yang penting adalah kejujuran dan keikhlasan.

jujur atas siapa diri kau yang sebenar akan buat kau lebih selesa.lebih bahagia.jujur dalam setiap perlakuan,perkataan dan kenyataan.tiada lagi istilah menjaga hati.

ikhlas bersyukur dengan apa yang kau ada.yang kau mampu.kerana apa yang dilakukan bertentangan dua perkara ini pastinya membuatkan sentiasa berasa curiga dengan orang lain yang akan bertindak seperti kau.

jangan sekali iri hati dengan kemampuan orang lain pastinya akan buat kau lebih bahagia.percaya pada kebolehan diri dan bangun setiap kali kau jatuh untuk membuktikannya.

jika ditanya pada diri aku, apa yang aku mahu buat masa ini.adalah sedikit ruang untuk bernafas sendiri.mencari senyuman yang dahulunya menjadi identiti.membina jatidiri dan personaliti yang lebih bersemangat.

kerana aku yakin aku akan jadi lebih baik.lebih baik.lebih baik.

i love some part of it.GONE mixed with BROKEN STRINGS

What you see's not what you get
With you there's just no measurement
No way to tell what's real from what isn't there
Your eyes they sparkle
That's all changed into lies that drop like acid rain
You washed away the best of me
You don't care
You know you did it
I'm gone
To find someone to live for
In this world
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight

Sometimes shattered
Never open
Nothing matters
When you're broken
That was me whenever I was with you
Always ending
Always over
Back and forth, up and down like a rollercoaster
I am breaking
That habit
Today

Let me hold you
For the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can't feel anything

When I love you
It's so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking
It's the voice of someone else

Oh it tears me up
I tried to hold but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that aint real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
I can't like it anymore
And I love you a little less than before

Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When it's too late

Oh it tears me up
I tried to hold but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that aint real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
I can't like it anymore
And I love you a little less than before

But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that aint real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
I can't like it anymore
And I love you a little less than before
Oh and I love you a little less than before

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last change to feel again

the magic of truth

don't be a hypocrite.
be urself.if they cannot accept you as what you are..it's their lost..=)

movie marathon

i had a good time watching movies with him.we did watch The Storm Warriors and Couples Retreat..14Disember2009,its a movie marathon day.the longest dating day i ever had...thank you so much..love you..=)

hope there will be a next time ya sayang...lalala...full stop.

now focusing on present working.looking for new career.new house.setting new wish for the NEW YEAR 2010..=)

REMEMBER?TOGETHER (I DO LOVE) FOREVER...

13Disember2009 was the day that I'll remember FOREVER.it has been a very long time..all of us didn't spend time together due to our own life of studying.working.courses undertaking and other stuffs.we went to Sunway Lagoon theme park, then we had a big dinner.TOGETHER as a family.

but i reliazed that somehow, as a grown up girl.I didn't enjoy my sunway lagoon day, because my brother and I had to babysit 5 kids which are our cousins, niece and nephew. after a few hours we were trying hard to take control of this kids..we are given up.we went to the amusement park and did played few stuffs like roller coaster...boring..because all this stuffs are remain the same like 13 years back at my kiddy time.they were not thrilled at all..please take note about this..=p

I spend most of the time taking photos of each moment we had.but somehow, they didn't like to take photos as much as I love it..=p

At the same day, I missed the gathering of my ex-broadcasting classmates.I miss them so much.but somehow,i choosed to be with my family instead of hanging out with them.You guys have no idea how much I love to see you guys..hope there will be the second one guys..dying waiting.=p

I missed my family already.without them I'll never stand tall like what I'm doing right now.they are my backbones.they are my souls and my pririoty.sometimes, I did misjudge, I did mistakes, but I always be ready to make it right again.I DO.LOVE you ibu, ayah, bangah, arin, adik..not forgotten.mama,makngah and cikma.and the kids.=)

p/S for those enemies, this is a reminder for you.never ever think that you can break my heart.you will never get the chances. but, even you made it,REMEMBER..I still have the soul.wink!