random feeling

im here..far away from family, my beloved friends and my sayang..
but somehow,here. i felt something different..i should have knew that i need time for myself.

no work,no presure.im not running away from my problem..i just need a space..i miss them..but i can't go back now..i have to let myself enjoying my zero-pressure moment.this is my random feeling.if people asked me what i want right now..i want a big blueberry cheesse cake...i want to kick ppl's butt!!JUST FOR FUN!!hehe!=p

glad

my life getting more challenging since i decided to change.
my heart hurts.my scars are bleeding.there are no butterflies in my stomach but a little dragon blew his fire.i will hate myself if i losing control of myself.

somehow, i know that im different than before.i can see the changing...im GLAD.

no self-destruction..because i love myself.